Its been a while since my last post, we've been a very busy household these past three months. You went on a whirlwind family tour with stops in Las Vegas, Puerto Rico for a wedding, and three stops in Texas (Houston, Bandera, and San Antonio) to visit family. When the tour was over your mom and I decided to add more stress to our lives and move. When you're older son, you'll understand that your mom and I are in constant movement, and you're along for the ride..... Now that we're settled in the new house (your gonna love it!) I've had a bit of time to reflect on the amount of change your mother and I have gone through these first 5 months of your life. First of all, even though I'm the goofy one, it seems that I'm going to be the disciplinary parent. Your mother loves you too much, she can't bear the idea of not giving in to your cuteness. You turned over on your belly for the first time this week. Your mom was the first eye witness. I've been waiting for you to turn over for a few weeks now, and you've been teetering on the edge of doing it too. Once you did, and it was in front of your mom, I knew what was going on. You were saving it, you wanted to show off to her....it was my proudest moment as a father thus far, and now you won't stop rolling and rolling everywhere. Beyond the physical changes in where we live and what you're doing, I've seen a real change in almost everything in my life. I'm sure any new father feels more reflective when his baby arrives, but this is different. I'm seeing the world and my own past experiences with different perspective. Before you my memories were seen only through my own self, almost as if I was in a vacuum of thoughts all my own. Now I'm re-living playing baseball with my dad as a child, and seeing the joy he must have had as a father in that moment. I think about the moments I've been impressed with myself, and think about your impressive moments to come. I can see my past with a wh
ole new perspective with you. I've been lost in thought about your grandfather lately, re-living memories and seeing them through a father's eyes. I've been getting closer to my mom too, you call her Mimi. She came last month to help us move, and stayed for 3 weeks. If you knew me "pre-you" Sam I generally start kicking and cussing after a house guest is here for 4 days, much less 3 weeks. You can ask anyone....it's not one of my better traits. As your Mimi's arrival approached I actually started to get excited about seeing her. I wanted to ask her so many questions about me as a baby, see what her thoughts were when I was your age, find out what kind of baby I was, but most of all I wanted her to see you. I think you've made me love my mom more. These sort of perspective changes are happening all over in my life because of you. I see the contributions my family makes, and the sacrifices your mom and I make as signs that I'm loved more than I ever thought before. You're the sign that its time for me to grow, and try to follow this path. You're growing leaps and bounds, and apparently so am I. Don't get too happy Sam, I'm still cranky most of the time, and my lack of patience still needs patience to deal with. What I can say is that being around you makes me a better person, and I'm really happy you're here.
